These times are the hardest for me to live because around this time I made my family suffer. These are the people I loved the most and the people who loved me the same. I was thinking of leaving, thinking that this was just to surreal for me to handle. Those emotions were just to difficult for me to handle. I regret every decision I've made in the past, every stupid decision. Sometimes it's good to think with your heart but you also have to think with your mind. I didn't listen to my mind and now I'm suffering the consequences.
You'd think you'd be past things but your not. Just one little thing can trigger everything.
It's so sad to see yourself like this, you feel sometimes that you've reached the edge. You feel sometimes that there is no solution to anything.
You see the sacrifices everyone is making for you and you try so hard to make it okay. You wish your heart was 100% with them but you feel that everything that you do will make them upset.
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