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"This has been one of the worse two weeks ever". She told her while they were getting ready for what was coming to them.

She was the saddest that she has been her whole life she knew what was coming. She wished she could stop it, but she couldn't stop the normal. She couldn't stop her friend's dream, she didn't want to end her brother's happiest. She just had to swallow every feeling that she had and she had to be there for her friend, because she knew her brother wouldn't. She knew that the following two weeks were going to be worse than the ones she just had.

Anger

When you are protecting the one you love, you will go to the ends of the earth to make sure that happens. No matter how old that person will get, you'll still need to protect them and they'll need you in any situation that they are stuck in. That's what I've learned over the years. I haven't lived long but I have lived a lot to feel the emotion of anger several times.

The best way to describe anger is when you feel that person is some how going to harm you in the future. When you can't stop something but you wished so badly that you could. When you know that someone is going to hurt your loved ones. When you have a rage of hurting them and never wanting to see them again, that extreme anger.

Inspirational Song for "Break Up"

My inspirational song for " Break Up" was.....

"MR. KNOW IT ALL" BY KELLY CLARKSON

The story was going to go into a more depresser state, but I decided not to do it that way :)

Breakup

"Everyone has a place in this world right?" Boy says.

"Yeah, I know I'm guessing mine is not with you"

"Yes, your right!". "Wow" the boys thinks, "this was easier than I thought".

What he doesn't know is what the girl was thinking about before he called her over. She was thinking the same thing as he was, ending their relationship. She saw that she had no future with him. She felt that she was trapped with his grip, not an emotional one, but a controling one. She wasn't happy, she didn't feel like she could be herself with the boy. She had a more introvert kind of personality.

On the otherhand, the boy thought completly opposite of what the girl thought. He felt she was no fun and too serious. He was glad that he broke up with her. He didn't care if he broke her heart, he didn't care if he played with her emotions. He gave her empty promises, false hopes.

The girl wasn't stupid and took the smartest decision she could have made. Now she's the one who's glad they broke up, and he's the one that keeps coming back. She's the one who likes to have a type of responsible fun, while he never talks at all.

Inspiration Song for "My Niece"

There was no specific song for today but what inspired me was.....

"THE TWILIGHT SAGA: BREAKING DAWN- PART 1" SCORE BY CARTER BURWELL. ITS so beautiful and it fits the movie so perfectly well.

I also really enjoyed doing to fan fiction of today and will be doing more more often

My Niece (Alice)

She is the one who had brought so much happiness into this house hold. You can't even believe how happy everyone looks now, how much their futures have change because of Renesmee. Jasper told me everyone's moods have changed also.

Renesmee has been with us for two years now and she looks like she's nine years old. We're scared everytime she seems older. Edward and Bella do the best they can to protect her from any harm, both psychical and emotional. Since I can't see Renesmee's future, I'm scared what the future has in store for her, for all of us actually, because of her actions. Is she going to love us or hate us when she gets older and learns how we reacted when Bella told us she was pregnant. We all try to avoid the subject, but she's too smart not to ask.

I love my niece and I'll love her forever.

Mixed Feelings

"I've been lonely for so long" she told me in that sad, little voice that always makes me want to cry. Poor Sarah, I thought, she's all alone with no one to hug her at night, or kisses her goodbye when she goes off to work.

"Well, enough about me, keep going on with your story Rebecca". What story was I telling her? I didn't even remember. I knew everything I told her was a lie because that's what are friendship consisted of lies.

"I wonder what being told the truth is like"? I thought outloud. She was flabbergasted. If she were to say something, I could have defended myself very easily and quickly. She didn't. Sarah just walked out of the restaurant, arrogant as ever.

Weekly update

Hi guys! Well I think it has been almost a week since I've started my blog and I think it's been pretty successful so far, even though I don't have any new followers. This is a slow process and I get it. Well, this week has been a little crazy. First, alot of school work and being sick. On the plus side, I have accomplished my promised that I have many. I'll continue writing and you too.!

Ramblings

Have we lost ourselves?Have we lost who we are? Have we changed our identities? We have become creatures who know one knows about. I have been lost in the world many times before.

I have lived though mnay things that I don't want to even remember. A lost friendship, a death of a sibling, etc.

Things that people never want happening to them I would wish happen to me, every day of my life.

Humanity

The future can be a scary thought for most humans, I mean people. Why should we think about it? Should we just let fate decide? Of course not because we're humans. Most humans think about the most insignificant things sometimes. Sometimes people can just get on your nerves sometimes. Have you ever thought how to get rid of all the people who annoy you? Of course, not killing them, but in a more peaceful, humane way.

"Well why don't just stay away or ignore them?"

Right, as if that worked. As if every bad thing can go away with the snap of your fingers. How much I wished that could happen.

Maturity

Is maturity important? Yes. Will it help you in life? Yes. Will you be respected if you act mature? Yes, of course. But what about acting your own age? Having fun? These questions arise to a teenagers mind almost everyday. The debate between acting your own age versus having fun? Well, has anyone ever though about you can have fun while acting your own age? Sure, but adults nag it to their children or teen children constantly and they don't listen. Well this is from a point of view of a teenager. This might be different for most teens, but this is just a situation that just popped into my head.

People can't sometimes take a joke, or just are not in the mood to take garbage all day. People need to consider other peoples feelings and expect the reaction that they know the person is going to give off. Just don't test people. Some people just need to grow up and soon. It will hurt you, trust me, been there and done that.

Life's stressful moments

It was so weird how time flew by so quickly, so unexpected. I was just dreaming one night and, BAM! it can true. Anyone would want the life I had but I don't. My life is so stressful. I'm so unfree to do the things I want anyone. I don't try to put all this pressure on myself, it's just that people put it on me. I used to smile everyday, but now I try whenever I can. I try to see the beauty and live life day to day, but it's hard with the life I have.

Time

Inspirational Song for "Circumstances"

Even though I didn't listen to a song while I was writing "Circumstances", but when I re-read it, I thought it fit perfectl with the song......

"ECLIPSE (ALL YOURS)" BY METRIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Also, sorry this entry was a bit short, my internet has been acting up and it deleted my orignal one and I accidently deleted the copy on my iPod.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lx9rIOcSAXc

Circumstances

How can you love a group of people who you haven't lived with for a long time and despise the people who you haved known all your life? Is it that I changed or did they? Am I too picky or have I raised my expectations with people? I haven't lived a long time, no, but I have lived through alot and am sure of what I want.

Inspirational Song for "Walking Down the Isle"

The song that inspired me to write "Walking Down the Isle" was....

CHRISTINA PERRI'S "A THOUSAND YEARS"!!!!!!!! Also, THE BREAKING DAWN WEDDING WHICH WAS SO BEAUTIFUL!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtOvBOTyX00&ob=av2e

Walking Down the Isle

That moment was truly magicial. Nothing could compare the way I felt when I saw the way he looked at me. The way his eyes were so focused on mine made me sure that this was the right thing to do. There was no power as strong as we had together that could separate us as it did before. I walked down, arm and arm with my father, confident. I could feel my face beaming with excitement just to get to him. I was finally ready to spend all of my life with the one that I was in love with so deeply. This feeling was one I wanted to conserve forever, because I knew nothing would top it.

Little Facts about Me ! :)

Just thought before I started out writing you should know one little, MAJOR, fact about myself.... I'm a HUGE Twilight fan! I could probably associate anything with Twilight! So maybe (depends on what mood I'm in) I might write my own fan-fiction of Twilight! So I thought that was important to share. I'm open for any type of Twilight dicussions and if anyone reads this, please comment and follow and if your not a Twilight fan, but still will like to read my blog feel free :)

P.SI might also post songs that have inspired my writing of the day

Beginning

This will not be the beginning of my writings, but just an introduction for why I decided to blog again.

A couple of days ago, I went to an event where it focused on careers. So i'm interested in a writing career and I'll try to constantly post and random blurbs that pop into my head. If anyone is reading this, I really appreciate the time that you are talking out of your day. :)